At this time, I feared that there was something missing in our marriage and was trapped in a pattern that was creating discord. A young girl who wanted attention and did not know how to give love was at the core. I was in a small fish bowl and did not know I was in a fish bowl. It was a container of limited thinking and action, created by my own unconscious design. I was actively polluting my marriage by my incessant judging, complaining and keeping score mentality.
I was unhappy and disillusioned as to what I thought life would look like being a married woman. I was now the bread winner, working as an Occupational Therapist in a school that was new to me, living in my husband’s former bachelor pad and had not created a space of my own to show up in. My state of mind was not creating intimacy and good times together which I desperately wanted- instead, I was quickly driving my husband away. I knew deep down that I needed to change. I needed to do my own work.
There was a turning point moment as I let it sink in that I had to figure out a path of change. I had to step into taking responsibility for my own outcomes and happiness and not rely on my husband to for this. On a mini get- away, I caught myself condemning my actions for how I had played the first nine holes of golf. Then it occurred to me prior to playing the back nine holes, that I could make a new choice and shift my mind and heart to receive a different outcome… that it was not too late to make a change.
Once I learned these foundational ways to see and experience the world… my passion became to share it with others. My signature program is a year- long life changing program, Pivot to Prosperity through the Four Seasons. I guide my students through a powerful system of transformation based on the cycles of change that is inherent in all of nature so that a new lifestyle and purpose evolves.
Reflecting back on the snake dream from thirty years ago, I realize now that I have been on a sacred path, on a journey of love and discovery while helping people. This dream was actually pointing to the direction I was to take and it was through my own personal undertakings and transformation that I discovered my True North and passion in this world. It is my purpose to uplift people by giving them tools to create a better world in which we all live. It took discipline and a practice along with support and accountabilities with like-minded people to release the former self and become the forward thinker, self-directed leader and prosperity practitioner that I share with others today.